As I awaited my treatment nearly four years ago, I felt vulnerable and alone. But my subconscious was sending me messages that things weren't what they seemed. That I didn't need to escape, but rather to hold on.
3/29/10
I wished to be free of my troubles, and that night, I had a dream about kites.
Large translucent white kites with beautiful designs floated against a cerulean sky.
I had never seen kites in my dreams, so I looked up the image in my dream interpretation book, and found what I already knew. I wanted to be free of my cancer and to be joyful again. I read further and found that I was subconsciously wishing to let go of the tethers that controlled my life.
But I had awakened feeling hopeful, so I wondered if the tiny strings really did restrain. Or were they there to connect the wishes I’d sent into the heavens with my reality on the ground? Were they offering perhaps not restriction but an opportunity to see my life with a different perspective?